Dr Molly Black

• 13:44 @ebertchicago twitpic.com/17y0rj - That truly is great. I would love to drive one of these! #

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• 19:17 The only reason my life looks as though I'm not in bed, trapped by pain & illness is due to Erica playing my "Farmville" game online for me. #
• 19:18 The pain has me not only trapped, crying, in bed, but also have anxiety nightmares whenever I manage to drop off to sleep (the only escape). #
• 21:45 Erica & I just nearly died laughing as we discussed any "poor innocent serial killer" that tried to take me to use for clothing. Too funny! #

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• 13:36 Even though I have every right to feel let down & betrayed by the world around me, I honestly feel a deep gratitude due to @mxxxpxxxxx. HUG! #
• 13:39 Trying to walk back in the rain with my rollator & umbrella would be too much for me; I had a hell of a time getting to my chiropractor. :-( #
• 00:08 I favorited a YouTube video -- Gary Numan "Me! I Disconnect from You" youtu.be/OP4Mwr1Ld7w?a #
• 00:11 I favorited a YouTube video -- Tubeway Army - Gary Numan - Are Friends Electric youtu.be/Uu6MDdxBork?a #

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• 12:16 @slauriat : bit.ly/a2UHbm (cut off the "m" at the end by accident) and we don't have the last two movies or the collector's edition. #
• 17:18 I favorited a YouTube video -- Addison Disease youtu.be/IqdTf9nC4Z8?a #
• 17:28 I favorited a YouTube video -- Adrenal Cortex and Addison's Disease youtu.be/eyZ6ij_ZnAg?a #
• 18:00 @slauriat : I didn't know that it was for sale in other countries. As far as I knew you had only released in USA & digital only on O'Reilly. #
• 18:06 RT @petapixel: Easy Release streamlines model releases: j.mp/apYsLY [THIS I see as an incredibly useful thing to have & worth cost.] #
• 08:42 Last night I showed @mxxxpxxxxx Val Lewton's "7th Victim" & the documentary about him, & we ate veggie soup wi/roasted garlic on warm bread. #
• 08:44 Afterward we jammed as he played his guitar & I sang along making up lyrics on the fly just like the old days w/my old band "immer essen." #

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This is a long, but extremely educational video put together by an RN who knows her Addison's Disease stuff. Two fairly urgent things I need to do: Get enough money together to buy a medic alert bracelet and start carrying one of my Cortef shots around with me just like I carry my medicinal marijuana license or my disability parking tag in my purse.

• 22:20 "No man can love, and yet remain truly proud. It is a disarming and humiliating experience." - H.L. Mencken (I believe this for women, too.) #
• 22:22 Sold my underwater camera housing for my SD800 IS on Amazon and sent it out today. Amazon seriously mistook the shipping cost. Must write. #
• 22:23 But not tonight. Tonight is for me to be really, truly, unhappily sick. The whole "pain/sick/dying" triad thing has me by "the short hairs." #
• 05:26 RT @ebertchicago: @GreatDismal I'm trying to imagine lyrics for the Traffic Girl Song. I'm a fan of yours, BTW. We met long ago at Sundance. #
• 10:30 Anybody have any spare money laying around? I really want this! Gold Box: Save on "Futurama: The Complete Collection" bit.ly/c255dp #
• 10:54 I found this link by accident and I wonder if @slauriat's publishers know about it: bit.ly/a2UHb (The pain's keeping me awake. OW.) #

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• 14:27 Started going through the comics (Epic's release of "Akira" in mint condition, bagged, & boarded, for instance) but Amazon doesn't sell 'em. #
• 14:29 If you need to buy something from Amazon, you can help me by using my Associate's links: bit.ly/9Vc4OH or putting in mollyblackpho-20 #
• 14:30 Remember: I'm doing this major sale & push not because I'm greedy but because I have no way of buying my medications right now & that's bad. #
• 01:18 RT @MilesFisher: Famous Movie Quotes in graphic form. Clever and funny. bit.ly/aqtZ3m [Quite a cute graph setup. Definitely cute.] #
• 01:20 Any of my Bay Area friends that are a size 8-10 and can fit into a 22" corset, please help me by modeling the clothes for me on Thursday. #
• 02:37 RT @ebertchicago: Dare you not to grin from ear to ear. j.mp/b5PHj2 [Truly sweet and very very talented and will make you smile.] #
• 03:11 I favorited a YouTube video -- PS22 Chorus "LISZTOMANIA" Phoenix youtu.be/3mZ1zV1l2KQ?a #

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• 18:08 Want to help me be able to get my medications? Don't have $ to donate? You could promote my stuff: bit.ly/d8T7xu bit.ly/9cDKWw #
• 19:40 Another way to help me w/o spending $ you might not have? Help my Amazon Associates store to sell things that you might want to buy anyway. #
• 19:41 Why the sudden rush for monetary assistance? I've got to come up with the money to pay for my medications urgently & immediately. Somehow. #
• 19:42 And since I have some great pieces of photographic gear that haven't been utilized, you could, if you want, buy my great piece of equipment. #
• 08:35 Last night I sold my Canon extender which makes me sad, but not as sad as I will feel once more of my camera gear I've got to sell goes bye. #
• 08:38 For instance I'm biting the bullet & selling my Rebel XT Silver Body Kit. The lens has never even been used. On Amazon but any friends want? #
• 09:18 I'm slowly adding books, comics, camera gear, etc to my Amazon sales page here: bit.ly/d2rwzg (which is amazon.com/shops/molly-shawn) #
• 09:20 If you're a friend of mine, and you see something that I have for sale that you want: LET ME KNOW, please? We can save $ on fees & shipping. #
• 10:48 bit.ly/7PD8vO Keep me distracted by asking me questions via formspring.me/mollyblack? I've also joined Fetlife thanks to @mxxxpxxxxx. #

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It isn't a matter of being 420 friendly, so much as the fact that one of the things making it possible for me to stay alive, able to eat, able to sleep (sometimes), etc. I have a prescription for it and would love to see the state take over the sales of it, especially if it meant that eventually it would be able to be paid by my insurance like my other medications with a co-pay. Unlike now where I have to pay full price, as does anybody else with a legitimate medical use for it.

• 13:24 On top of everything else yesterday I hit my foot full force into the bed so hard that I screamed. Started limping. Woke up w/bruised toes. #
• 13:28 So on top of all my other physical issues, now can't use that foot very well & I have a very definite limp. No walking around for me today. #
• 15:35 I favorited a YouTube video -- Talking Heads - This must be the place (Naive Melody) [live - 1984].avi youtu.be/Cqg_ZGcuybs?a #
• 15:36 I favorited a YouTube video -- Talking Heads "Burning Down the House" youtu.be/xNnAvTTaJjM?a #
• 15:53 There's so much I want to do but I'm having these weird dizzy spells on top of the nausea & pain keeping me trapped in bed. Frustrated, too. #
• 16:26 Granted I'm trapped in bed, but I want to point people to bit.ly/aeFRkQ to look at the clothes I have for sale. I need to sell! Help? #
• 20:43 I can't stop listening to Talking Heads & crying over certain songs. I'm so jealous of the talent & capabilities they showed from the start. #
• 20:46 That's not why I'm crying, mind you. Crying from the emotional wringing out that some of their songs manage to do to me. I love too much. #
• 20:49 Any friends out there who can't help me financially (most of you, I know) - if you could help me by listing my corsets, rubber, etc for sale #
• 23:25 RT @GreatDismal: RT @somebadideas: She always deserved an Oscar for that ten minute bar scene in Near Dark. [So true!] [Completely true!] #

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To see many more photos of each item just go to here to see lots more As far as the prices are concerned I am flexible with some, but not with others. The Lip Service or latex for instance...there will be more added to this every other day so keep an eye out for them!

The prices do NOT include shipping. Shipping will be done based on weight and package size. FedEx Ground for anything over 5 pounds (aka for gowns) and USPS Priority Flat Rate Box for everything else. Paypal payment preferred - especially need verified addresses for shipping and insurance purposes. In order for you to look up shipping costs you can use my shipping zip code of 94611.

Though there is only one photo of each item here, if you follow the link at top you will see many, many more photos of the items, including close ups of any flaws. Questions answered quite happily.

My corsets and corset gowns can be found in the corset community and my previous entry with another fourteen (14) pieces of clothing ranging from rubber sets to vintage pieces here at http://mollyblack.livejournal.com/302495.html.


Black Velvet Leotard with Kitty Tail with faux fur accents and trim(S)


Vintage Sailor Style Mini-dress for regular wear or Cosplay Size (M)


Next Collection sex-neutral top with black fabric pattern down front and buttons all the way up the back. Truly unique. Size (10)


Gorgeous partially sheer top by Rampage - green beads down the front of the textured shirt and sleeves that go forever Size (L)


Very rare green patterned dress from a now defunct clothing store from the Lower Haight in SF (Bulletproof I believe was the name) in 1995. Worn out three times and the rest of the time kept in excellent condition in a non-smoking home Size (M)


Longer skirt in a free size with elastic waist, vintage, with white thread accents and sequins around the bottom


Very rare holographic high heeled shoes from England/UK made by Underground Shoes Size (6) in UK but I wear an 8.5 and they fit me a little tightly, but bearable.


Vintage Frederick's of Hollywood trousers, they're a pair of loose black trousers covered with a separate layer of sheer with blue silver reflective material floating on top with slits down the sides Size (M)


Pair of Express sample trousers that are black with sheer lace up both legs on the sides for a very lovely effect Size (M)

I so desperately want to make music and the more I watch bands I admire performing, the more I want somebody to get me singing for them immediately!

I try so very hard every day to try and help myself get a little better. Instead the prognosis from each doctor throws a little more fuel into the depression files.

1. We lost all our money plus the trip to go to The Galapagos due to my thousands of dollars stay in the hospital due to nearly dying from possibly a complication between my Addison's and my Candida allergies.

2 I found out my immune system is just as badly off as when I was in the hospital and I have slight carpal tunnel syndrome in my right wrist/arm.

3. My credit is starting to get ruined all over again based on all of these factors out of my hands. I need help because before I got so sick I was on top of our bills and finances. Now? My credit is crumbling out from below me and I find it fairly scary and depressing.

4. I need to find an excellent free DVD ripper so I can back up my DVD collection that works in XP.

5. This week is full of doctor appointments and errands. Not a lot of fun. Chiropractor twice, maybe three times, therapist, and over the bridge via Paratransit to see Dr. Rena. Still trying to get a pain specialist on this side of the bridge.

6. I believe in a conscientious person to make up their own minds, with family and doctor support of course to choose between continuing to suffer while being a drain on resources. That way to die in "Soylent Green" just seems so perfect to me. Shawn holding one hand - the rest of my friends who could stand it could enjoy those movies with the music etc.

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Can't sleep since my schedule seems all messed up. I'm feeling quite out of it and I really wish I had my husband snuggling next to me right now. Even snoring. I can't handle the constant pain - and at this point I have it fairly non-stop. I feel so worn out from all the things swirling around that keep me from the peace and quiet I really want.

I have the movie "Two For The Road" stuck in my head. I'm looking all around me and I feel more alone than ever. This week I see my new chiropractor, my therapist, and my pain specialist in the city. That's a huge bunch of Paratransit passes needed. Though I can use my rollator to walk to the chiro.

So I feel awake and sad and in pain at 5:33 am according to my iPod Touch, anyway.

*SIGH*

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I would pick Kurt Vonnegut, Agatha Christie, Anna Kavan, Angela Carter, Terry Pratchett, H.L. Mencken, Hunter Thompson, or Douglas Adams.

All of them worked very hard at their craft but their writing seems to flow effortlessly; even though I know from reading various autobiographies that it usually is far from easy for any of the writers I love. I would think about changing it permanently because I don't know that I want a voice that isn't "really" my own.

• 10:00 RT : Chile has been hit by a 8.8 magnitude earthquake, Tsunami warnings issued across Pacific including Hawaii nyti.ms/cWQCqL #
• 10:25 4-day super sale for Men's, Women's, & Children's Clothing, Shoes & Accessories; latest fashions & clothing 20%-75% off bit.ly/bwjHKI #

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• 16:12 RT @alyankovic: Hey, Austin, TX! Heads up! bit.ly/bWFCuj [I can not tell you how jealous I am that I'm here & can't go to this!] #
• 16:13 Now a real wonderful thing would be me going down there to find tickets for the event waiting for me (with disability seating, of course.) #
• 16:20 On the typical of my health side of life: Neurologist says I have mild carpal tunnel syndrome in my right arm for sure. Tomorrow? We'll see. #
• 20:49 RT @petapixel Water Drop at 2000 Frames Per Second bit.ly/9cCtKQ [This is absolutely beautiful & well worth watching for the science] #

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• 13:52 RT @alapoet: Medical Marijuana Bill Passes New York Senate Health Committee lnk.ms/4mXT0 #
• 06:55 Bad insomnia again. Happening more & more often. Seeing Neurologist today. Seeing new chiropractor Friday. Both within "Rollator" distance. #
• 07:18 I'm in love still, after all this time. I wish that things could fit together more easily. That he was here with me at the apartment I want. #
• 07:20 There's a gorgeous two-bedroom around the corner that our current property mngmt co handles; I want to move in there so badly! Storage even! #

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• 22:02 I wish I had good news to share but I don't. New chiropractor says I'm as bad as if we got hit a few days ago thus needing more help & fast. #
• 22:05 Received a letter from my allergist re Candida in my system. Same as five months ago (higher than should be); I need to drink more Nystatin. #
• 22:09 As I'm allowed two caretakers at Berkeley Patients Group I brought @mxxxpxxxxx in with me today so he could experience the atmosphere w/me. #
• 09:41 I checked in at Drunken Fish (3314 Piedmont Ave) on #Yelp bit.ly/d7z41v #
• 09:47 Piedmont Systems on #Yelp: "Good friendly customer service. They accept packages & mail already paid postage, though... bit.ly/cuSREu #

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• 21:31 I feel like hell. I tried handling as much as I could by myself today. I wish I had a caretaker I could count on rather than just hoping. #
• 23:33 Watching "Stop Making Sense" - which was my present from @slauriat for BD/VD. Still no caretaker. Going to redo & repost my ad. Couch life. #
• 23:38 Options: caretaker at your place, which means rent & utilities help from me OR come take care of me either here (Oakland) OR my Austin home. #

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• 19:24 I'm still in huge amounts of pain which causes me to get more depressed each day. I try not to. I try to keep myself distracted. But I hurt. #
• 19:34 Just saw this on Amazon: 'Community Service' by Crystal Method Audio CD - ... for $17.98 bit.ly/cIxiA2 (@slauriat - belated VD gift?) #
• 19:43 And a book I can't wait to read:: 'Chasing Lolita: How Popular Culture Corrupted Nabokov's Little Girl All Over Again' bit.ly/bDhEIW #
• 20:07 Win a new Canon 5DMKII or $2700 of photo printing/product from @WHCCPro & Scott Bourne. Pls RT. Info: bit.ly/6Mtx9I #
• 04:22 Had a really nice quiet night in showing @mxxxpxxxxx Stanley Donen movies. Original "Bedazzled" & "Two For the Road." Rather bittersweet. #

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• 18:24 I'm too sick to even think of going to anywhere tomorrow. Staying in bed today. Visitors welcome today between 6-9 pm: w/eggplant sandwich? #
• 18:25 Texts only today. I'm crying & crying & crying so being on the phone doesn't seem like a great idea. All I want is @slauriat to come home. #
• 00:15 I gladly received a huge amount of birthday wishes on FB; but some friends misunderstood me. Visitors & connections. Not material goods. #
• 00:17 People seem to keep misunderstanding me, which means I'm miscommunicating. I don't just excpect physical gifts. They're easier on my mind. #
• 00:18 I have memory problems due to all my medications. Honestly I am thrilled that anybody out there is still friends w/me what wi/death and all. #
• 00:19 So I don't expect or desire material goods more than things like cards (back in the old days) & trust & affection. I need love most of all. #

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• 12:53 @MrTeller twitpic.com/138xjy - Glad I'm not the only one with today as a birthday. #
• 20:29 I give up on ever having a happy birthday so long as I have a birthday like I always do. My husband could have been here - in my dreams. SAD #
• 01:05 I would love to have my husband by my side, watching a movie with Erica & Mark P & having a happy time. My life doesn't believe in "happy." #
• 01:06 I'm so depressed that if anybody out there reading this really does have something sweet & material to offer me I will accept it happily. #

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• 13:23 bit.ly/ar17Ap - Oh wow, I want this so so much! It's the XBox 360 Final Fantasy XIII Limited Edition. I would willingly trade for it! #
• 13:43 Valentines Day has almost always sucked for me. @slauriat has made a few of them stand out in my mind w/his surprises. More love please? Ok! #
• 23:15 bit.ly/ar17Ap : more links to prezzies for a woman who refuses to give up & still believes gifts are a great way to show you care. #
• 06:39 bit.ly/cG6CzD : A link to something special I would like for my birthday. A visit. I don't remember anything much but the pain. WAAH! #

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• 20:27 I'm worn out & exhausted. Depressed due to the pain & stress that won't give up. Thursday: Would love to have a couple bags of Reese's Cups. #

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